Sunday, February 17, 2013

AN EXTRA-BITTER COLD


      There was a skiff of snow on the edges of the car windows this morning, so I checked the temperature online: the wind chill was 4°. It didn't really matter that it was a balmy 22  in the sun and out of the wind.
       Our gatekeeper was a man who has served many Sundays in that position. He didn't want to give me eye contact as he pressed the button to let me in. There's a pall over the whole staff at the shelter, and I assumed Gatekeeper just wanted to keep his feelings private. Still, I gave him a cheerful "good morning" and got one in return.
       In the kitchen were Miss Lillian and Dean, a tall handsome fellow I've not met before. They were hard at work. Until now, Dean has only worked part-time there and not in the kitchen, but now he is full-time. Lillian was instructing him in the ways of our kitchen, and Dean was learning fast.
       They had already prepared a pot of soup for lunch and a huge pan of hotdogs in buns. We deep fried chicken patties and put those in buns. There were plates of leftovers for the homeless residents, and I opened a #10 can of apples. We put several dozen pieces of cake on the counter, and no one left hungry.
       When the lunch and dinner menus were fully prepared and/or well underway, Dean and I made up a dozen sack lunches, two dozen pbj sacks for the street folks, and a half dozen breakfast sacks. Sundays have always been Lillian's day off, but things have changed. Topping off her longer hours, she had to get all those meals ready early so she could leave before 1 o'clock; she had family responsibilities. She was happy to see me, and to be honest, I was happy to help her in any way I could.
       We have the same four children we've had for several months, but today I got to meet one of the little twin girls. Until now, they've not come to Sunday lunch when I was there. I wish you could have seen that child's face and heard her gasp of delight when I handed her a beanie bear. You'd have thought it was, well, a lot more than a little beanie bear. Her sister is sick today, but I left a bear for her too.
       The boys got gadgets and candy, but if they delight in them, I don't see it. I think some of these children (especially the boys) have learned to put on their manly faces for all occasions—no crying, no laughing.
       Our threesome team was awesome. We had assembly lines going at every opportunity, and Miss Lillian played backup, cleaning up after us and keeping us on task. She even dug a rubber mat out of the back room for me to stand on! I was thrilled with that!
       By 12:30, Dean and I had served lunch to more than 50 guests. We had filled 45 plates for dinner, wrapped them, and put them in the warming oven. I brought home a little bowl with pork chop, rice, and gravy for myself—Miss Lillian can cook. Anyway, Lillian was able to get away 30 minutes ahead of her deadline. I left Dean well prepared to serve dinner. He'll only need to put the plates on the counter and check off the diner's names.
       Speaking of the diners, they are unaware that anything has changed; they seemed extra sweet today, extra thankful, and quite happy overall. I don't think it had a thing to do with how much they liked the food.
       On leaving, I stopped at Gatekeeper's window to mention how different today was. He agreed. We're rather stuck in a hard place right now, with no help for it but to carry on. I thought about never going back, but then I remembered: it's not about me—duh.
       When I have news I can share, I will. You can put out a prayer if you like—The Source will know exactly what we need.
       Two pitiful street dwellers sat on plastic boxes in the contained foyer, curled over their own laps, surviving the bitter cold. Their indomitable will to live always takes me by surprise.

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